So I know it has been awhile since I have posted anything. I am stuck in that holiday stress trap. Nothing good comes from being here. Instead of enjoying the holidays, you just get to stress about how to make it perfect.
Creating perfect holidays is a problem area of mine. I am not sure how I developed this fixation with everything being perfect on the holidays but it has spurred some amazing melt downs. I really feel sorry for Coy because he has no recourse for these moments. He has learned to let them go and maybe that is the best thing for him to do.
On December 1, we went to a wrestling match with Brent. The next day I got sick. I fought it all week but Friday I had to go to the doctor. I have a sinus infection. It has been miserable, my head pounds, I am congested and I am exhausted. So I did not get anything done last week. I really mean nothing. I rested all weekend to try and get better. I know if I keep pushing I will just stay sick until after Christmas. It is a couple weeks before Christmas and I just spent an entire weekend at home and did nothing for it.
Monday morning came and I started to panic. When am I going to cook treats for 15 trays, finish shopping, wrap, decorate, work and attend all of the things my kids are in? I have 15 days before Christmas and you really can't count Christmas day or Christmas Eve. Technically I only have 12. Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!
Here it is. I am throwing in the towel. Whatever gets done gets done. It may not be perfect but as Craig told me on Monday, the sun will still come up tomorrow. This is the solution just let it work itself out and enjoy the season.
I hope all of you take a step back and see that Christmas is just a day and the best thing to do is enjoy it. Even if your candy turns out wrong or you get someone the same gift someone else did, enjoy the moments, your friends and family because they are what it is all about.
